Just a couple of thoughts from a while back!

Just a couple of thoughts!
This is just a couple of thoughts and questions that I have wondered about over the past week or two.

The last couple of weeks at church, there have been sermons that have raised questions for me.
One week we got onto the topic of injustice in both biblical times and now. These are just some of the thoughts and questions I wrote down during that sermon.

Justice vs. Injustice?

Where do we go? where do we go to find these people and follow Him? How far do we go? (We don't have to go very far to find the homeless and the disadvantaged)

The people in biblical times risked themselves totally. What are we going to do? What I am going to do? How far do we go?

The week after that, the congregation looked at Acts 1:1 - 8, we were told to be encouraged to speak about Jesus, and about being a good role model and a good witness to Jesus. Though, I thought about it, how do I speak about Jesus at work at Target? I don't have the confidence, I don't have the knowledge enough of how to speak to people about Jesus, and I don't want to seem too overbearing. How does it just come up within a minute worth of me swiping barcodes and putting stuff in a bag and asking for flybuys and receiving money. yeah. i just don't get it.
I don't want to seem overbearing to anyone. Although it seems to me that I have been, to at least one friend. I've asked them to come to so many social occasions, and to help me for so many things, it seems like I have been overbearing. I have spoken to them most days, I surely must be getting rather annoying!!

Thats all from me for now

Cheerio
Jess

Thoughts and happenings of Saturday, April 12, 2008

I might regret this later, but at the moment I couldn't be stuffed!! Tonight I went to the video store with a couple of friends of mine. I walked in with happiness bubbling inside of me, and a good laugh just waiting to come out, but came out incredibly angry, wanting to hit something. I don't think it would've mattered who or what it was. I knew I needed to get out of there, and go home, but my acquaintances, well friends, I guess, spent one hour in the store looking at every aisle of both dvds and videos just to choose two dvds in the end. We were also looking around the dvds and videos looking for ideas of 90's characters we could dress up as. It was this, some of their ideas, that made me quite mad. Now, I don't get mad very often (well becoming more and more frequent), and I have never been mad at this one particular person before, so I felt it was quite strange that I suddenly wanted to hit her and her 'friends'. So, yeah, I kept my distance from them the rest of the time that they looked at dvds, and I looked at playstation games, and some of the classic movies (which I found quite amusing, once I came upon the grapes of wrath movie), then didn't talk at all in the car ride home, and then stayed in another room when we got back to their house, and then once they'd gone back out to get pizza, I went home, though i don't think actually told them i was leaving, and that i wouldn't be home when they got home. Yeah. Its the first real time in a long time that I have had this well of anger build up inside of me, this time very quickly. It was weird. I feel rather bad about it, I'm rather ashamed of the tears that were shed afterwards, and the names I might have called my friends and acquaintances afterwards, and rather ashamed of the road rage I experienced on the way home. I just don't know why this occurred. I guess I just was trying really hard, I guess too hard, to be friends and get in the 'gang' of this one particular friend, and got angry because her other friends have got so much history with her, and I guess I just want them to forget this history, I mean, the only reason i know what they're talkin about half the time is because I've seen photos of them all out and about, or dressed up at Flinders Christians or Mid Year Conference or various parties of friends before I knew them. I mean I wish people would just stop talking about one of my friends AMAZING 21st birthdays, to which was put .. I knew her, and its really annoying, and several dress up opportunities like the drug lords themed night for mid year conference or something (i don't even know that much) Yeah. I mean, if they want me as a friend, they're gonna have to make room for me, coz its not in my nature to just barge my way in to social circles and social situations. Its confronting and annoying and i guess, infuriating. Thats all for now. Looking forward to tomorrow.
Cheerio
Jess