I haven't written on this thing for quite some time. In that past 3 - 4 months there have been many experiences, many God moments, many things that I have learnt, many people that have been my angels and my demons, so many smiles, laughs, crys, bad moods, good moods, excitement, dancing, writhing, etc.... in life, many things I wish I could take back, many things I wish I could have done or could do, many things that I was satisfied with the decision made....
Since August I have had Teens camp, learned Auslan, Queensland trip with work, had Cristy-Lee's 21st, had schoolies green team launch, prayer weekend at Hawthorn, kind of decided to change churches, helped in at the encounter youth office, preparing for my trip to Bangladesh in January, then Schoolies Festival 09, and the beginning of the city TEAR group....
Where to start, in that time, my relationship with God has (as it seems to me) has strengthened from the increased focussing on Him... I am just worried that it would seem that I am not doing it for God, but doing it instead for other people in the church, and I don't know whether I am just trying to justify it to myself and reason with myself to kid myself into thinking that I am being a strong person, and follower. But had an awesome time on prayer weekend and on thursday nights at Thurs Nite Gatherin's. Even though this has not meant to have been my "church" for the week, it has been something to that effect every week.
At the time of writing this, it is one day until I fly out to Melbourne for a briefing for the TEAR trip to Bangladesh! It is starting to dawn on me that I won't be back home till the end of January and even though I have been quite calm, and getting quite excited. I am still also a little apprehensive about it as well because of the things that could happen. I could get bali belly, gastro, etc. I'm trying to overcome the negative thinking by thinking of the positives and of the lessons that will be learnt and the different sights that will be seen. Also, hoping that I get some alone time while on this trip, because I don't do well being around people all of the time. Hope it comes and goes quickly
Can't wait to go back to one50 dance again in 2010, which I guess is this year. Even though its only been a matter of weeks, it feels like ages. Missed the dancing and people in my class/club so much.
My Auslan classes were also so much fun! I can now sign a little bit in Auslan, and am looking forward to learning some more.
Schoolies Festival was another highlight for me this year. Even though we were a little disorganized, it all came together. With a few hiccups, we connected well together as the youth work team. I, myself, connected and got to know a few of the people in my team a little better, and I am such a better person for knowing these people. We seem so different, yet are so similar in so many ways.
